Modesty and Pride

by Bryan Bednarek

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    My very first collection of songs.




Created just after high school. I was filled with so, so much angst.


released December 25, 2010

All tracks recorded, mixed, produced by Bryan Bednarek



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Bryan Bednarek Chicago, Illinois

I sometimes make music with my friends.

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Track Name: Digging Graves
(You are amazed)

I'm so unfazed by what has happened here
You floatersby can't see clearly

(I am so unfazed)

As a result slamming doors, bags, and ringing of keys
So absolutely no "what's done is done... it stays within the family"

That's not my lifestyle

At Christmas time you're so cliche
Just stay the fuck away from me
I don't want to lose you, stay dear to me
Track Name: I Hate Myself.
Reset me free and smooth out my lines
Roll my heart down get another chance to fight
I want this to be what it is in his mind's eye
But don't go now never take me by surprise

Set me back soon, let me learn to fly
Push for the eyes to see what I need to find
All is well now, I feel so free
Fuck embarrassment? Move on? Fine by me

Reset me free and smooth out these lines
Roll me back down new scenarios in sight
I want this to be what it was in my mind's eye
Just take me now, I'm sick of these unforeseen skies

Set me back down please, let me learn to fly
Push for the soul to take what once was mine
Please forgive, I repent, this is not what I had in mind
My bowl was then full, now today I have to die

Every time I reminisce I recede into my mind
Imagine every time I missed and die a thousand times
Track Name: Say Yes (Elliott Smith cover)
I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
Who's still around the morning after
We broke up a month ago, I grew up, I didn't know
I'd be around the morning after
It's always been wait and see
A happy day and then you pay
And feel like shit the morning after
But now I feel changed around and instead of falling down
I'm standing up the morning after

Situations get fucked up and turned around soon or later

I could be another fool or an exception to the rule
You tell me the morning after

Crooked spin can't come to rest
I'm damaged bad at best
She'll decide what she wants
I'll probably be the last to know
No one says until it shows and you see how it is
They want you or they don't
Say yes

I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
Who's still around the morning after
Track Name: Ailerons
Halfway through this heaven’s height
No flashing lights confine my sight
Preface of old snow
Nauseous, head-rush, plug your nose
Let’s go

Miserable medium in your mind
‘cause clouds reflecting hurts our eyes

I’d hold your hand, talk to you
Shift your thoughts for primest view
Singing to you, dear “Soon we’ll be so out of here”

White darkness manifests reality
Your breath on my ear is only in me

Here is a wonderful place to be
(I look around; you cannot be found)
Such a beautiful way to see the reality
(All I see are mountains’ faces)
Of everything you want to leave
(All I see are shadows’ clouds)
Track Name: Thank You
Every time I think of you, it’s like
I only just realize that you are gone.
I wake up, again, and my mom tells me. Again, everything falls that’s within my body.
We’re too sick to sleep, too scared to be lonely.
I’m too afraid to believe that this can be easy.
If I dare I’ll shut my eyes to spare my-
self the torment of living without you.

Then we’re standing all around you.
We’re asking how we can all move on.
Then we all hold hands and the tears start to fall.
We were only one phase away; how can you be gone?

Although it hasn’t been long I no longer lose sleep; because every day I still tell you everything.
Lovely days breed peace of mind;
I know I’ll see you again in due time.

Then we’re standing there beside you.
My hand on your heart, please, anything but to let go.
Side-by-side we all hug and the tears start to fall.
I cringe because this begins before we can crawl.

We’re standing all around you.
We’re standing there beside you.
May it flow around you.

I want to get this image out of my head
but in its place I would find guilt instead.
At the end of that day all I could say…
All you could give was what you gave.
All I could say was thank you,
thank you.
Track Name: Progress
Tell me, Doctor was it worth all the school?
Does it mean a single thing to you or does “Ph. D.” just sound really cool?

Oh, Doctor won’t you teach me something new?
Please don’t you let me make a fool of myself

Have you seen all there is to see of this ocean deep,
This salt free sea that so effectively lures me?
(I am blind)
Have you read all there is to read of this open sea?
That sea that continues to so ruthlessly drown me

Oh, Doctor all you have’s the will to rule
No matter what you or I do, I’ll always make a fool of myself
Everything I’ll ever foresee will be too good to be true
Fuck you and your greedy state; still you will kid yourself everyday